thoughts, whims, and delusions of a middle aged mama

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

it's rainy and cold, today. i just can't seem to get focused. so i'll spend lots of time playing solitaire and feeling guilty.
in between i'll do some laundry...the dishes, pick up 'stuff'....gotta asuage the guilt....
we're going out to dinner, tonight. our local mental health agency is picking up the tab for a group of us who were "readers/raters" for a huge rfp(request for proposal)....one to select a managed care organization for our three county joinder for mental health and behavioral health services. i was one of the readers...we get to take our spouses/significant others/concubines/whatevers with us. nice.
fred will go. he won't say anything if he doesn't have to. he'll look very nice if he doesn't show his teeth. poverty does not bode well for aging teeth. his plate is broken and no longer fits properly so his teeth are all out of line. he's super self conscious about it.
fred also feels super weird in groups of folks from mental health. he has bi-polar disorder but is a victim of self-stigmatizing and so doesn't want any association with things that remind him that he has flaws.....

i have to get one of the kids to come stay at the house while we go out. it's too soon to leave becka unattended. she'll be in her crate, but still, i'm nervous.
clair, our vet, gave me syringes of liquid valium to give her rectally if she goes into a seizure. if no one is here...well....gotta keep becka well...gotta....
maybe david will come over. he can veg for awhile and lord knows, he owes me.....
Becka....

Champion Sherwood's Rah-Becka
Becka is the most beautiful hound one could ever want. And what a personality! Despite the reputation English Foxhounds have for being aloof, Becka is a true "mush" dog. She was raised with Golden Retrievers and no one has told her she isn't a Golden....
Bec is almost four years old. She's been very, very healthy all of her life.
All of a sudden on Monday of Memorial Day weekend, she started having a cluster of grand mal seizures....
Scared the bejesus out of us...
It has taken almost two weeks to get them under control....
Two weeks ago Maggie, our 12 yr. old Golden died, quite suddenly....the thought of having to put Becka down was just devastating....but so far, so good....no seizures in a week, today.....

Mimi and Nana
This is my darling.....my son Michael's two year old. The light of my life!
I'm just learning this "blog" thing so posting a picture of me and my grandchild seems a good way to start.....

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First I am a mother, and grandmother....that is probably the single most important aspect of my life. Then I am a family advocate for a large, national advocacy organization. I work primarily in "systems advocay", helping to identify needs and change policies in children's behavioral health. And I love my dogs, my garden, my pond and fish, and trashy murder mysteries and the occasional shot of good scotch.... Fell free to post a note in whatever the most recent entry is...I love meeting new people!

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